get ready, this post gonna be a little over the top

don't you ever think that life is so not fair? well, i'm sure everyone thinks that. my way is like this.

i realize something today. scientist and other people have been saying that the end of the world is near. i mean, that's not fair. sometimes i wish i was born a little early. seeing those grown up having fun with their kids, having money, worrying about bills and the school fees.

as for the grandparents, seeing they spoil their grandkids and the parents just don't mind. i like that. then, when i read about the researches these scientist did, and i realize i might not be able to be like those grown up.

i figure if the end of the world is near, then i won't get to experience life. i won't get to go to university and go to work interviews, crying cause i didn't get the job, nervous about the other interviews coming up, meeting my prince charming that is gonna sweep me off my feet and we will live happily ever after.

that is until we have to pay taxes, bills, thinking about the childrens education, worrying until our hair turns gray, i mean, we still gonna live happily but that ' happily ever after' is gonna be filled with arguments, that later we're gonna say sorry and pretend like it didn't happened.

i want that. not now, but i want to hope that i will live long enough to experience it. people my age, i think the 'life adventure' begins as soon as you step out of high school.

i wanna be the girl that doesn't have to worry about anything, don't care about what people think. unfortunately, i can't deny or even avoid that kind of stuff. something in me would say something like this,

" first impression always count"

or

"look, now what do you think they'll say?"

or even

" aw man, they're probably talking about you right now. now what?"

i can't get rid of the little sucker in me.
anyway, that is pretty much it.